There have been many moments of 2015…some good, some bad.
My 40th birthday (in September) was overshadowed by grief. And earlier this week, I was thinking about how I couldn’t wait to get this year over with so that I could finally have a fresh start at 40. I was so focused on my loss that I had forgotten on all the good that happened throughout the year.
And then I was on Snapchat (follow me @Laliquin) and watching Kathy, aka Crafty Chica. Kathy shared that she had created a free printable to reflect on all the highlights of 2015.
Check it out: Savoring the Last of 2015: Coloring Pages & Zine by Crafty Chica
Immediately, I knew it was something I wanted to do. And I’m grateful I did!
This last year was so much more than my grief. Yes, I’ve had bouts of depression and many nights where I’ve cried myself to sleep (especially during these last three months) but there were many moments that made me smile and laugh out loud. Moments where I felt happy and proud and loved.
In case you can’t read my sloppy scribble, here are a few things that made 2015 memorable…
Cool Things I Did:
- I went to California for the inaugural We All Grow conference. And I got to spend time with some of my favorite blogueras.
- My wish to visit Walt Disney World with my parents came true!
- I became a board member of an organization of Parent to Parent (I will be sharing more on this in January).
New Things I Tried:
- I actually got on a roller coaster at the Magic Kingdom. I’m such a baby about rides and they really freak me out but I had to get on the Seven Dwarfs Mine Train.
- I started meditating. I never thought it would be something I could actually do but it’s truly helping my anxiety. I even wrote about it on Latinamom.me – you can read about it here → Calm: The One App Worth Paying For
Top 5 Lessons Learned:
- It’s OK to be a little selfish, especially when you’re pursuing your dreams
- To let go
- Meditation is powerful
- To forgive myself and others
- To keep going even when things get really hard
And then of course, it wouldn’t be a year end round up without sharing the 2015 Best Nine on Instagram.
My most liked image is a reflection of my lessons learned – to accept the body I have. Over the last five years, I’ve gained nearly 50 pounds. My weight has been my biggest source of insecurity but I had to tell myself that I didn’t gain 50 pounds overnight, I can’t expect to lose it overnight.
New Year’s Eve always makes me sentimental. Tonight it would be very easy for me to focus on my loss and to look forward to starting over. There’s no denying that having a second miscarriage was the worst moment of 2015 but it wasn’t the only moment. I can appreciate this year, as heartbreaking as it was, because I know 2015 was much more than sadness. And I can look forward to 2016 with hope.
What are you thinking about this New Year’s Eve?