I don’t make a habit of posting pictures of myself in a swimsuit. But when my blogger amiga, María José Ovalle, shared her idea asking women to practice self love, not self loathing this summer with the #MySwimsuitStyle challenge – I knew I had to participate. Especially since I had just ordered a two-piece swimsuit (GASP!).
Last year I stepped into a fitting room to try on a bathing suit and walked out almost in tears. I eventually settled on a swimsuit and was determined to lose weight. Remember when I talked about the weight I gained and how I needed to make lifestyle change. Welp, I’ve gained a little more weight since then.
I know. I know. But the struggle is real people.
Anyway, I spent most of last summer, sitting on the sidelines while Joseph and Norrin splashed around at the pool and water park. When I finally ventured in to cool off, I slipped a tank top on over my bathing suit. Yup, I had become that mom.
It felt horrible when Norrin asked me to go into the pool with him and I said no just because I was self-conscious about my body and how I looked in a swimsuit. I didn’t want that to be the case this summer. Even though I haven’t lost any weight, I don’t want that to hold me back from enjoying the summer with my family. Norrin is growing up so fast and I’ve got that whole FOMO going on.
I knew this had to be the summer I accepted the body I have instead of waiting for the body I want. And I feel happy that I found not 1, not 2 but 3 swimsuits that fit me the way I want.
Each time I looked in the mirror I didn’t ask myself “Does this make me look fat?” I asked “Does this make me feel good?”
And they did.
Last weekend, I went to the pool with Norrin and Joseph. This time I didn’t sit on the side sweating my nalgas off, I got in the pool wearing my two-piece suit. And you know what? I didn’t care. The thing is, my kid doesn’t think I’m fat. He’s not looking at the bulge around my waist or the dimples in my thighs. He’s just happy, I’m playing in the pool.
I had so much fun that afternoon, I forgot to take a picture for this post. Okay, fine. If I’m really being honest, as comfortable as I was wearing the suit, I didn’t feel that comfortable posing in public. (And if you know, I’m all about selfies – it’s hard to take a full body selfie) Soooo baby steps. Besides the summer’s just begun. I’m ready to accept my body and #MySwimsuitStyle.
Putting on a bathing suit and going to the pool is one thing, taking selfies in one and posting them on line is another. And it’s kind of freaking me out that I’m doing this. (My hands were shaking taking the pictures.) But letting go of all my insecurities is liberating. And I think I look pretty okay – chichos and all.
(update: 6/20) About the swimsuits:
The grey one is by Miraclesuit and was provided to me for accepting the #MySwimsuitStyle Challenge. I initially agreed to the post before Miraclesuit decided to sponsor it. I love it! It’s super comfortable, figure flattering and I feel good in it!
The red two-piece is from J.Crew. I love that the bottom provides full coverage. It’s easy for a quick outing to the pool and for those days when I just want to tan (safely of course). You can mix and match the colors too, since the tops and bottoms are sold separately.
My third swimsuit (not shown) is from Athleta and it’s a swim dress. I just need to wear a swimsuit bottom underneath. This is great for water parks because I hate walking around from ride to ride in just my swimsuit, the swim dress is perfect!
Welcome to the #MySwimsuitStyle challenge hosted by María José Ovalle of Very Busy Mamá and co-hosted by the fabulous Katie Reed of A Mother Thing, Reesa Lewandowski of Momma Lew, Vicky Mason of The Mummy Chronicles and Andrea Summers of Momma in Flip Flops.
WHY: To promote and encourage self LOVE not self loathing this summer!
Join by showing off YOUR swimsuit style, let go of your insecurities and let’s make a SPLASH this summer.
HOW: Write a blog, or simply post a picture in your swimsuit to Facebook, Instagram or Twitter using
#MySwimsuitStyle, submit your link below and visit participants leaving positive comments!
Proudly sponsored by Miraclesuit